Monday, September 19, 2011

Blog 5

Been a hot minute. Been fighting with my parents nonstop for 3 weeks. Between them downing my education (and how I don't have a job that matches it), downing my parenting skills (and how they did better but wonder why I turned into a "terrible" parent), and how being fat is the reason I am not married/dating seriously/ wanted by men I am about 2 seconds from going Lizzie on them.

I am fat because I am depressed. I am depressed because I am unhappy. The only thing that makes me happy is my son and that isnt enough. I should be happy to see my parents not livid that I can't escape them. I am a good mom but I raise my son different. Not bad just different. We have a routine and it is to be stuck to. When I say no I expect it to be upheld not for my mom to just wait till I am out of the room and then give him or by him whatever he wants. BS

I need a job that matches my education. I need my own place or at least one without my parents. I agreed to let them have the house but that doesn't mean they can treat me like a smelly piece of garbage. And as far as a man goes... I'll get one when I want. I want a man. I don't need one.


no where near where I want to be.....

1 comment:

  1. Ahhhhh, the joys of being a woman. You realize if you were a guy you wouldn't have to hear any of that. I don't know a single woman who hasn't heard most of those things from their parents. I myself am not unscathed.

    You really can't come to an agreement with your parents on everything, sometimes it is best to give up, or shock them into shutting up. My mother was on me for the longest time because I didn't have a husband and hadn't given her grandchildren. She went as far as to accuse me of being a lesbian and how I was going to hell for it, lol. Finally I had to get the monkey off my back so I told her that I was never having children because I didn't want them. And that if I ever did want kids I was going to adopt. My mother couldn't get over that, but she sure shut up about it. Now she gets to be happy that I am having a baby, and I didn't have to listen to her run her mouth for the last 8 years. I think it worked out best for all parties involved.